Streetlights

The streetlights flicker like candles and I catch a glimpse of your smile. It's just not the usual kind, the kind I loved growing up to. It's dark and I don't want to know why, I don't want to know what pleases you now. It's getting harder and harder for me to think of you as the sister I've bled so much for. I don't want to think about what's going on in that head of yours, but the thing is I know you too well, always did. Know the signs, the shift in your voice, the movement of your  eyes. And right now I almost wish that you were a stranger. A stranger so it wouldn't hurt when I did it. It wouldn't hurt me so fucking much when I put that knife in your chest and watch you bleed, with all the disgust I  have for monsters who live. Yeah streetlights are better that white lights. I don't have to see too much.

Blood Bath

'Dead' says the floor

frozen in painted tiles

as a lost shower of blood dies

and it's only her drowning

doesn't move

doesn't breathe

only stares at me pleadingly

to save her

my love

a red daisy among fallen flowers,

With melting eyes I fall

wondering who'd do such a hateful deed

and I look down to see

the knife in my hand.

Rave

The CDs sc-r-atc-h

and the beat d

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All reason stops.

Stained Sparks

The woods are wet

with the piss of revolution

everyone lost in their

anger lead mazes,

only see the dark in this

raging fire.

Shall I leave this world

for another

or

stay put my friend?

I run and trip.

'Help' they yell

and I see a spark

in the drenched woods;

soon they burn

in bloodied innocence.

But,

there is a man I see

the man with the spark

whose life's stained

with a million others

and I know

you know

it's me.

Unclarity

Clap up a song

by the fireside

I'll sing along

till we win this tide

No no no don't leave me

under the embers

I get lost in their eyes

thousands of undead souls in mine

when I open my eyes

I no longer see the road

and there's no one I can hold

onto for my failing gravity.

me and my unclarity